Everyone is on a blogging rampage latly and it has my gears turning….Why dont I blog anymore??  Its easy to let live get the best of you and you lose your sense of creativity….so maybe its time to get all these thoughts, hopes and dreams back on paper….or on this here computer screen :)

This year is already bringing a great hectic schedule so hopefully this will lead to a great year! 

Lets discuss the calendar of events why dont we…

1) CABIN FEVER-Fuzions in Monroe, GA-Feb 25th.  Just 4 Fun Radio events (thats us btw) is hosting this event…for bikers, by bikers as our way of saying THANKS for all that the biker community does for charities and all sorts of causes….There will be bands playing all day, vendors, door prizes, bike show and contests, and as the sun goes down the REAL fun begins ;)

2) As my moms breast cancer benefit ride came to a close in 2009 and we raised over $14,000 for her, I vowed to pay it forward and host a ride once a year for the cause.  I found a recipient this year that needs our help more than anyone I have ever met, Pam Mathis.  She is struggling every day to battle ovarian and cervical cancer as she has received the MAXIMUM amount of radiation a human can receive in their LIFETIME…in case your stupid THATS A LOT…She has fought this disease hand and foot for tqo years and she needs help.  The 4th Ride for Roxy will take place March 10th starting at 5 O’Clock Somewhere in Covington, go to Depot, Fuzions, Hooters in Conyers, Horizons an back to 5.  I want this to be a huge success!!!!

Thats all for now…stay tuned fruitcakes ;)

It has been quite some time since I have blogged, it seems life has picked up quite a bit…between work, building my makeup business which is slow moving and the events and promotion of what has become very popular… (www.just4funradio.com) the radio show that I am apart of, life is insane.  Which brings me to my topic of thought….my friend, roommate and creator of Just 4 Fun Radio had a very valid point yesterday as I was recovering from a night of belligerent partying and living in the image of my radio persona, The Queen Bee….He said “theres a fine line between perceiving to be this character for sake of the exposure we get and actually letting it consume you….you see he has been in this business for years, and at one point allowed his dj persona and the scene to get the best of him, so I do listen to his stories and recommendations and I sort of come into this character we have created for me…for the first time, as the station builds popularity you become desirable…I am the party girl, I am the sexy glammed up bitch that doesnt hold back…I get the name honestly…I am the queen…but now, the persona is starting to creep into real life…in a negative way.  I want nothing more than to see the station grow and grow and start to benefit us monetarily and with that our characters images must grow too, but I need to grab the reigns on it soon before I crash….Its strange for me, being that I have struggled and struggled for physical attention, not only from the opposite sex but all my peers, we all want to be accepted.  So years ago I embarrassed my size and just highlighted my positive attributes, which is my outgoing personality.  Well now that The Queen is here, she has intensified my confidence and image and now Im sought after, that is a very strange action to me….but I love it, its addicting….but it has gotten a hold of me….The partying, the drinking, the boys…wow its insane…that attention is infectious…wow…what a great word to describe it…infectious…But each drink, each encounter, Im slowly losing Crystal in this fa sad…and I got to balance it out and get her back.  Because Crystal is fabulous too…she is driven, strong, and successful in most of what she does.  I dont have to hide in the queen to be fabulous…but the queen IS a lot of fun!  lol

True friends know the difference and love you regardless, but will the fans understand?  They support our craft and show so much love, can I really be Crystal around them…

Just needing to get my thoughts out in reflection of this weekends events…I think I need a hiatus from limelight…and I say that as we just start to build popularity…and I think my recent break up has a lot to do with it as well…kind of a rebellious period after being completely locked down and controlled…not only by him but my own accord….so its a combination of the two circumstances…

Ive always wanted to famous, in some sort of way…dreamed in my bedroom as a little girl of being a manager or PR agent of a music group, singing and dancing in my room to Janet Jacksons Rythem Nation….theres always been an infatuation with celebrities and stardom…I guess this is my avenue…

The Queen lives on, she just needs to simmer down now…your thoughts?

I just want to say one thing…ive never held so much hatred for one single person in my entire life…i pray for ur karma to smack u more than I pray for my scars to heal….u think ur gods gift to women when actually ur that insecure and unsure of urself that u keep the revolving door of women open…using them to occupy ur thoughts so that u dont feel pain or regret…u are pathedic….and as soon as I stop hating myself for allowing u 6 months of my life and for allowing ur abuse and for believing that what we had was real…then I might forgive u…but I doubt it…but thank u for kicking me out of ur life because I got my life back…u selfish ignorant disgusting piece of shit at the bottom of the barrel…and to whomever is reading this..and wants to judge me or tell me im better than this and not to stoop…come live in my head for the past month…then u will understand…or go grab the dustpan so I can sweep up the pieces of my heart on the floor…hurry back now….good night

This is just a teaser for all my friends and fans haha! I link my blog to FB so when I post, it shows up as a status on ur news feed… Just simply click (view post) and it will take u to my blog… I will soon be starting my self healing process through what has been the hardest situation I’ve been through, worse than my divorce! As I enter my new decade, things must improve and it starts now!….. Stay tuned!

Lord have mercy I havent blogged in ages….but after the phone convo I just had with my daddy, my heart is flooded with emotions…Daddy was prepping me for my upcoming visit to Wisconsin…We are all going to be home for my Nana and Papa’s 65th wedding anniversary..Wow 65 years…I remember their 50th like it was yesterday….I was 14, bubba was 4…and we all seemed to have a closer bond as kids than we do now…as life puts us in different scenarios and positions…my parents were still married (god that seems weird) we were all so happy…so young…God where o where has 15 more years taken us? Jobs, careers, families, marriages, divorces…a lot has changed…and one more very important thing has changed…those two people that are responsible for all of us being created, are 15 years older…. We are very lucky…we have both grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins…were all still alive…but as daddy warned me that nana and papa aren’t spring chickens it hit me….this get together is important….cherish every moment…you all know what I’m saying without me having to say it ok?
It brings me to tears, happy memories of nana and papa…I used to pace the floor waiting on their van to pull up in the driveway for their yearly spring visit to the south…when they arrived I would lay in Nana’s lap, tired from lack of sleep due to sheer excitement…Papa and daddy would play cribbage and get the boat ready for fishing…Papa always always picked on me…I was always his lil redneck :) Papa’s last trip to Georgia was my high school graduation…seems like yesterday, but due to his emphysema it became hard for him to travel….Damn it where have the years gone??? It just doesn’t seem right…
We all get so consumed in our everyday lives and so wrapped up in everything that we all forget about the memories we have…I love my family and I’m proud of the stock we come from…I can’t wait to see everyone and reminisce!!
This is for you Nana and Papa…thank you for giving us life, values and smiles…I love u both so much!!!!

I was going to post my review on kate’s dress at the Royal Wedding but I didn’t find time…but now my neighbor @cunn1780 has got me back into twitter…southern diva glam will be getting an account…but meanwhile I want to start following some awesome people…who is your fav person to follow?! Besides me of course…DUH! :)

I am making the nessicary steps to getting my dream off the ground…My makeup artistry and event planning business…I have ordered business cards, and created a facebook page!  www.facebook.com/SouthernDivaGlam!

Im so excited!!!!!!  Pass the info along!